dear everyone,

you don't ever need to try and be good enough for anyone else. people will tell you that you have to, people close to you, people you love and people you've known your whole life. i know it always feels like you should and i know its hard to convince yourself that you shouldn't always be trying to make yourself 'good enough', but tell yourself it everyday until you believe it, because trying to be good enough is miserable, and it will make you more miserable and bitter everyday, until one day you wake up and your 35 and unhappy and doing things you don't want because you had to please someone else. not only is it miserable to experience, it's equally miserable to watch. please remember this when someone someday makes you feel like you aren't worth their time, because it will happen. instead of trying to make yourself worth their time, find someone who never made you prove anything for theirs, because they knew you were worth it to begin with.

hilary

things could be worse.

but things could be better.

i copied jenny

here's my list of favorite (famous) people, in no particular order, because i really couldn't decide who is better then the other. i equally am obsessed with them all.

1. emile hirsch: not only because he's in my favorite movie of all time (into the wild) and another movie on that same list (milk) but he just seems unique by nature.

2. dakota fanning: she's also in more then one entry on the favorite movies of all time list, and i also think that she's had more talent in her little pinky since she was 4 then most actors could have in two grown bodies.

3. dave matthews: he's my musical soul mate.

4. rupert grint: because i love harry potter, and i love gingers. he's a great actor and i've had a mad crush on hims since i was 11.

5. anna paquin: i love her gap and the fact that she keeps it, i loved her movies before, and now i love her in true blood.

6. sean penn: he's a creative genius and maverick, and such an intelligent guy. he directed my favorite movie of all time, and is in more then one of the best movies ever made.

7. mark twain: i've always thought he was probably one of the most intelligent guys that ever lived, in the most simple of ways. he was eloquent without having to be complicated, and could reach any type of person.

8. jack white: my other musical, and probably real life, soul mate.

9. meg white: probably the only female musician i can wholly identify with.

10. michael pitt: i think he is probably the most underrated actor on the face of the planet. everything he does is just brilliant. he adds a depth to everything that i don't think any other actor his age can.

this damn video

it tears at my insides. the song just by itself i'm not so crazy about, but the video just rips me up and i have yet to watch it without crying like a maniac.

i wish life had a like button

ssooooooooo i heard an interesting story on the radio today (and then later on christian nightmares) about a woman named Bethany Storro, who was previously on the news for apparently getting acid thrown in her face at a bar for no reason.

random, but sad.

but THEN, it turns out that she faked the acid attack so she would be invited on the Oprah show so she could 'inspire people and tell them about Jesus.'

...

which brings me to 3 points.

1. even if her first made up story was true...how does that tell me anything about Christianity? maybe if she was being persecuted for being a christian, ok, some people might be inspired, but a random person throwing acid on you and gives you some nasty scabs is not really inspiring. as you can see in the pictures, shes got some nasty discolored scabs which might lead to a few scars, but they say she will ultimately heal. it's not like she's that poor lady that was on Oprah earlier who got her whole face ripped off. i mean, yeah it's sad, but it's not the first thing that comes to mind when i think 'christian inspiration.'

2. she actually got invited to oprah. she was scheduled to go on the show with her mom. the police didn't even suspect it was a fake, they had no INKLING of an idea she could even be lying. but she told them. i mean i'm glad to know it was a fake, but wtf. you suck at evil plans. well, i guess yours wasn't evil since it was in the name of your jesus, so you suck at holy plans.

3. bitch you crazy. how about doing something inspiring instead of throwing acid on your face? not only crazy deformed people make it on oprah. you could've helped someone, AND saved your skin.

and thats all i have to say about that.

oh i hate teabaggers

smosh helps us realize the amount of intelligence supporting the tea party movement.

happy monday.

via Smosh

i'm not the creep on urban dictionary

jessi's post about her blog on google gave me the urge to google mine. first, it asks 'did you mean hilarious?' and gives like 3 results for that, then it has an urban dictionary entry for ANOTHER blog author named hilaryus (who apparently is a creep) and the facebook for a guy named Jhong Hilaryus. =/

there's another hilaryus in canada who pops up, someone's flickr, a site for another hilary (which is http://www.hilary.us) and then me! :D

yeah i'm bored, i have about an hour til class and not shit to do lol.

^

things are looking up for now.

and the fire department has been here 3 times because of the smoke alarms in our building going off. my theory is someone keeps blazin and setting them off. this is close enough to the ghetto that thats probably the reason.

my brain:

i'm pumped for true blood season finale, but wtf am i going to watch when it's gone? ): besides weeds, CNN, and teen mom?!

el dia de los muertos is just about my biggest inspiration ever.

and i have a new weird attraction to mayan-esque tattoos thanks to apocalypto. which is gorgeous movie, and has one very gorgeous indian man named Rudy Youngblood in it.

welp thats all i got.