i'm afraid of getting bored and not being good enough or not doing the right thing. and i'm afraid being afraid of these things will never let me relax enough to be myself, because i feel like someone different every time i'm around you.
i'm kind of afraid of being myself, because it's starting to seem like we're more different then i originally thought we were. and i thought we were really, really different to begin with, which is not something i'm used to. past boys have basically been me with a dick, so i'm not really sure how to function around someone who's not.
k.
