Sunday, May 8, 2011
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
15 facts about moi
1. i have the brain of a boy. i think about sex and/or food every 2 seconds.
2. i love other cultures other then my own, all of them almost equally. even the ones most people find threatening. they are so fascinating to me. but it's not because i dislike my own culture, on the contrary, i love it.
3. i'm judgmental, but so are you.
4. i dislike people who complain a lot, especially when they do nothing to change the situation that they complain so much about.
5. i also dislike when i'm telling someone about something bad thats happened to me, and they say 'oh thats nothing, wait til you hear about what happened to me..' bitch i'm trying to vent.
6. i thrive off trying and experiencing new things. stagnant people drive me nuts.
7. i'm an atheist, and a proud one, but religions also fascinate me. not because i feel like i'm missing something (like so many people have suggested to me) but because they say so much about the societies from which they arise.
8. these things that fascinate me do so ultimately do so because i find people fascinating. as much as i try to fight it sometimes, deep down i'm a people person. and i'm very interested in everyone. i will notice things about you that you might not even notice.
9. the one thing i hate though regarding religions, is when you're somewhere beautiful, like a mountain range or somewhere with a great view of the ocean, and someone says 'how can you NOT believe in (insert god) when you see things like this?'
quite frankly, i think the world is a more beautiful place when i know it wasn't created. that all of it fell into place, made out of the stardust of the universe. i think that's even more beautiful. i like to give the credit to mother earth. so many people are so busy giving the credit to god that they forget about her, but really, she's our real creator.
10. i love all kinds of animals. i love cooking. i love big open spaces. i like the city, but i can't be there too long. i think cities encourage materialism and make people forget who they really are, and the things that really matter.
11. sorry if i'm sounding like a crazy hippie, i kind of am sometimes.
12. i love movies. i've seen so many. i want nothing more then to make them.
13. A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle is the closest thing I have to a bible.
14. i love my boyfriend. he's the best boyfriend in the world. if you think yours is, you're just kind of wrong. i've never simultaneously been so in love/had such a good friend. it's the best feeling in the world and now i finally understand all the cheesey love songs. (oh hilary stfu how fucking cliche (: )
15. i've been thinking about making a toasted nutella and jelly sandwich so now i'm gonna go do it.
2. i love other cultures other then my own, all of them almost equally. even the ones most people find threatening. they are so fascinating to me. but it's not because i dislike my own culture, on the contrary, i love it.
3. i'm judgmental, but so are you.
4. i dislike people who complain a lot, especially when they do nothing to change the situation that they complain so much about.
5. i also dislike when i'm telling someone about something bad thats happened to me, and they say 'oh thats nothing, wait til you hear about what happened to me..' bitch i'm trying to vent.
6. i thrive off trying and experiencing new things. stagnant people drive me nuts.
7. i'm an atheist, and a proud one, but religions also fascinate me. not because i feel like i'm missing something (like so many people have suggested to me) but because they say so much about the societies from which they arise.
8. these things that fascinate me do so ultimately do so because i find people fascinating. as much as i try to fight it sometimes, deep down i'm a people person. and i'm very interested in everyone. i will notice things about you that you might not even notice.
9. the one thing i hate though regarding religions, is when you're somewhere beautiful, like a mountain range or somewhere with a great view of the ocean, and someone says 'how can you NOT believe in (insert god) when you see things like this?'
quite frankly, i think the world is a more beautiful place when i know it wasn't created. that all of it fell into place, made out of the stardust of the universe. i think that's even more beautiful. i like to give the credit to mother earth. so many people are so busy giving the credit to god that they forget about her, but really, she's our real creator.
10. i love all kinds of animals. i love cooking. i love big open spaces. i like the city, but i can't be there too long. i think cities encourage materialism and make people forget who they really are, and the things that really matter.
11. sorry if i'm sounding like a crazy hippie, i kind of am sometimes.
12. i love movies. i've seen so many. i want nothing more then to make them.
13. A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle is the closest thing I have to a bible.
14. i love my boyfriend. he's the best boyfriend in the world. if you think yours is, you're just kind of wrong. i've never simultaneously been so in love/had such a good friend. it's the best feeling in the world and now i finally understand all the cheesey love songs. (oh hilary stfu how fucking cliche (: )
15. i've been thinking about making a toasted nutella and jelly sandwich so now i'm gonna go do it.
Monday, March 14, 2011
i am not jasmine i am aladdin.
have you ever thought about people and realized, there's something you just absolutely hate about every single person you know?
whether it be an annoying habit or they way they get when they're drunk or they way they think about certain issues. or what they like and don't like, what they think matters and doesn't matter. they way they talk when they argue or they way they act different around boys or how they always smoke in your car without asking you.
i dunno.
and it's weird because all of that kind of stuff you can't openly hate really, until it actually creates a problem and you eventually fight or argue about it. and it's not like that will do any good anyway, people don't ever seem to changes things like that. you'll just argue and argue until you get tired of it but the only difference is now they know it bothers you so they're defensive about it.
on another note.
time has flown this semester, i need to step my game up school wise.
i've been spending all my time with a certain someone and its been kind of messing with it.
buuuutttt
i am so happy. (:
i've never been in a relationship like this ever, i didn't even know one so good could exist. it's all the things i never knew i wanted.
my recent little health ordeal is pretty much over praise jeebus, and i feel a whole lot better.
idk thats about the extent of my update kids. i'll try not to forget about this thing again. (:
whether it be an annoying habit or they way they get when they're drunk or they way they think about certain issues. or what they like and don't like, what they think matters and doesn't matter. they way they talk when they argue or they way they act different around boys or how they always smoke in your car without asking you.
i dunno.
and it's weird because all of that kind of stuff you can't openly hate really, until it actually creates a problem and you eventually fight or argue about it. and it's not like that will do any good anyway, people don't ever seem to changes things like that. you'll just argue and argue until you get tired of it but the only difference is now they know it bothers you so they're defensive about it.
on another note.
time has flown this semester, i need to step my game up school wise.
i've been spending all my time with a certain someone and its been kind of messing with it.
buuuutttt
i am so happy. (:
i've never been in a relationship like this ever, i didn't even know one so good could exist. it's all the things i never knew i wanted.
my recent little health ordeal is pretty much over praise jeebus, and i feel a whole lot better.
idk thats about the extent of my update kids. i'll try not to forget about this thing again. (:
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
redbull and vodka
so i stole jessi's 20 day challenge thing, buuuut i'm gonna do it all right now. because i'm bored and procrastinating and i wouldn't remember to do it everyday for 20 days anyway. ;)
1. If you could wish for anything that would come true right now, what would it be?
my answer to any type of wish question since i was 10 has always been 'a wishing machine that would give me unlimited wishes.' so i'm sticking with that.
2. What’s your favorite season, and why?
fall and spring. for most people they're transition seasons, but i like that perfect in-between extremes kind of weather.
3. What is true love?
true love for me is finding your best friend, someone you can do anything with and say anything to, who you just innately trust with all of yourself. someone who thinks the sun shines out your ass and who loves the parts of you that you hate and who makes you feel at peace and at home, no matter where you are. at least thats what it is for me. you know.
4. What is the best and worst jobs you have ever had?
best job was definitely lifeguarding, because i basically got paid to sit around and tan. haven't really had a worst job yet, i dislike all work equally.
5. What is your phobia/fear?
not being good enough.
6. Have you ever had your heart broken? Have you ever broken a heart?
eh, yes and yes.
7. What is something you’re addicted to?
facebook and pizza bites.
8. What do you like the most about yourself?
i like that i can find humor in everything and that i don't take anything too seriously. it helps me not linger on shit i think a lot of people get hung up on.
9. Are you a lover or a fighter?
both. i don't really get why they have to be separated haha. when it comes to it, i'm not afraid to do either.
10. What would you say your biggest fear is when it comes to relationships?
getting bored, getting hurt, not being enough for someone. same shit as everyone.
11. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would you change and why?
i wish i wasn't so critical of myself.
12. What are features you get complimented on a lot?
physical, eyes probably the most.
13. What is your favorite sport?
soccer. but i'm really not a big sports person.
14. Write a letter to someone important in your life.
eh i don't want to write a whole big thing but, if i did it would be to my little brother. i'd let him know how proud i am of the kind of person he's turned out to be, which is a sweet hilarious and down to earth kind of guy, and that he'll always be my first best friend. i'd say thanks for not being such a typical teenage boy, and to remember his roots whatever he does.
i love you, Ern, don't ever change.
15. Whom do you admire the most?
i admire a lot of people, i couldn't pick just one.
16. What are 10 goals in your life?
1. do exactly what i want to do and not worry about how unconventional it is.
2. have kids.
3. hike in the andes or chichen itza or any of the places i want to go with them either strapped on my back, or walking right along side me.
4. be conscious and present, ever day.
5. find some actual productive way to consistently help people.
6. quit comparing myself to other people.
7. make movies.
8. find someone to do all of it with.
thats about it.
17. What gives you sincere happiness?
simple things, and outdoors
18. What are the 10 most significant memories in your life?
couldn't pick 10 if i tried.
19. When were the happiest days in your life?
right now.
20. If you died tomorrow, what’s one thing you’d regret not doing?
nothing.
1. If you could wish for anything that would come true right now, what would it be?
my answer to any type of wish question since i was 10 has always been 'a wishing machine that would give me unlimited wishes.' so i'm sticking with that.
2. What’s your favorite season, and why?
fall and spring. for most people they're transition seasons, but i like that perfect in-between extremes kind of weather.
3. What is true love?
true love for me is finding your best friend, someone you can do anything with and say anything to, who you just innately trust with all of yourself. someone who thinks the sun shines out your ass and who loves the parts of you that you hate and who makes you feel at peace and at home, no matter where you are. at least thats what it is for me. you know.
4. What is the best and worst jobs you have ever had?
best job was definitely lifeguarding, because i basically got paid to sit around and tan. haven't really had a worst job yet, i dislike all work equally.
5. What is your phobia/fear?
not being good enough.
6. Have you ever had your heart broken? Have you ever broken a heart?
eh, yes and yes.
7. What is something you’re addicted to?
facebook and pizza bites.
8. What do you like the most about yourself?
i like that i can find humor in everything and that i don't take anything too seriously. it helps me not linger on shit i think a lot of people get hung up on.
9. Are you a lover or a fighter?
both. i don't really get why they have to be separated haha. when it comes to it, i'm not afraid to do either.
10. What would you say your biggest fear is when it comes to relationships?
getting bored, getting hurt, not being enough for someone. same shit as everyone.
11. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would you change and why?
i wish i wasn't so critical of myself.
12. What are features you get complimented on a lot?
physical, eyes probably the most.
13. What is your favorite sport?
soccer. but i'm really not a big sports person.
14. Write a letter to someone important in your life.
eh i don't want to write a whole big thing but, if i did it would be to my little brother. i'd let him know how proud i am of the kind of person he's turned out to be, which is a sweet hilarious and down to earth kind of guy, and that he'll always be my first best friend. i'd say thanks for not being such a typical teenage boy, and to remember his roots whatever he does.
i love you, Ern, don't ever change.
15. Whom do you admire the most?
i admire a lot of people, i couldn't pick just one.
16. What are 10 goals in your life?
1. do exactly what i want to do and not worry about how unconventional it is.
2. have kids.
3. hike in the andes or chichen itza or any of the places i want to go with them either strapped on my back, or walking right along side me.
4. be conscious and present, ever day.
5. find some actual productive way to consistently help people.
6. quit comparing myself to other people.
7. make movies.
8. find someone to do all of it with.
thats about it.
17. What gives you sincere happiness?
simple things, and outdoors
18. What are the 10 most significant memories in your life?
couldn't pick 10 if i tried.
19. When were the happiest days in your life?
right now.
20. If you died tomorrow, what’s one thing you’d regret not doing?
nothing.
Monday, January 3, 2011
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
oh,
i'm afraid of getting bored and not being good enough or not doing the right thing. and i'm afraid being afraid of these things will never let me relax enough to be myself, because i feel like someone different every time i'm around you.
i'm kind of afraid of being myself, because it's starting to seem like we're more different then i originally thought we were. and i thought we were really, really different to begin with, which is not something i'm used to. past boys have basically been me with a dick, so i'm not really sure how to function around someone who's not.
k.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Friday, November 19, 2010
oh man.
As I am generally around pretty mentally stable people these days, I almost completely forgot about the crazies out there that made me begin my crusade against religion and insanity in the first place.
Here's some nice reminders that reminded me why this delusion needs to be eradicated.
P.S. Dear June Hunt,
You're not smarter than me, for the simple fact that you are 50 something and believe in flying wizards in the sky, and I, at 19, do not. The people you claim to have converted from atheism are just like the people that claim they were 'turned' from homosexuality. They are brainwashed, they are scared, and they probably had a bit of crazy in them to begin with, or else they wouldn't eat up you're circle diagram bullshit.
Monday, November 15, 2010
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